Must rant.

I'm neither here nor there. I'm constantly on the fence. One minute everything is perfect and beautiful, and the next I can't understand why anyone puts up with any of it. I feel this with everything. Even this that you're reading. On one hand I feel like it's my earthly duty to somehow log what I'm feeling in case it may mean something to somebody at sometime. But then I ask, is it not the single most egotistical of acts to think that somebody cares about these things I have to say? I should probably delete this right now, I have done so before. Become disgusted with myself, my own thoughts written down to the point of total silence. So what to do?